Admitted to the hospital.
In the month of April I was visiting my nephew who lives outside the city of Trondheim in Norway and was going to stay with him and his family for about a week. But, during my stay there I experienced the pain in my body moving to just about every muscle in my body I knew about, and even some I did not know about prior to this. The situation became
considerably more serious and the pain was the worst pain I had ever experienced in my entire life! A couple of painfull "balls" grew out of my legs and I found myself in a situation where I was not able to get out of bed on my own, and not even get dressed or going to the toilet without help. In short, I was now a total invalid and was of course quickly brought to the hospital. Once there I was put on an antibiotic treatment, as well as given pain-killers and other medication. This went on for about one week and then I was able to leave the hospital practically without any pain at all.
But, - the "healing" soon proved to be short-lived. After about 2 - 3 weeks the pain started to come back and after abo
ut 5 weeks I was forced to check myself into a private clinic in Riga in Latvi
a. Once again I went through extensive tests an
d medical examination with only one problem found: A muscle in the lower part of my throat was damaged and not function. And with that the reason for problems I also had experienced with a sore throat and not being able to swallow food properly on a much too regular basis, was found.
Beyond that, - I was told I was a very healthy man.
The somewhat strange part of all this was the fact that doctors in different countries like Latvia and
Ukraine as well as with two different hospitals in Norway, Drammen south of Oslo and then Orkanger in the county of Sør Trøndelag all came up with the same conclusions: Following extensive medical examinations with lots of blood samples and all kinds of different other tests, their final "judgement" was: "You are a very healthy man!". But as one doctor with Orkanger Hospital said to me:
"Even if we are not able to find exactly what is wrong here, - it is obvious that you have a severe problem. Since antibiotics seems to help, - it is evident that there is something inside your body reacting positively from this treatment."
The doctor then went on to explain: Based on my history of rather severe experiences from stress and trauma, not only connected to what happened to me in the early fall of 2012, - but also connected to very traumatic experiences with the Norway authorities earlier in my life, (ref other posts I have written on this blog) he told me as follows:
"Your body´s reaction to all these experiences can some times result in the body producing something similar to a poison which in turn will lead to rather severe muscle pains. However, our various ways of doing tests and examinations is not able to identify this problem."
During the summer months of 2013 I also ended up finding myself in a situation where medical pain killers had no or very little effect on my severe pain experiences any more. During the months of September and October the pain has some times been so bad that I am literally crying tears from this and even on rare occasions crying out loud when moving my body in bed at night.
Previous stress-related health problems in my life.
As you are able to read about in another post on this blog, - I was in the period from 1984 to 1992, (very close to 8 years which is a Norwegian record!) under investigation by the police and tax authorities in Norway for a range of TOTALLY INCORRECT and even FALSE criminal accusations. This involved
accusations of embezzlement, tax fraud and more, but after close to 8 years with down-right horrible experiences with Norwegian authorities, I was 100% acquitted of all charges!
People not having had the experience of being under this kind of pressure for 8 years, will never
understand the grave seriousness of such a situation. But let me say that during this 8-year period I was TWICE taken to the hospital in an ambulance as a result of the SEVERE stress I was under. On a third occasion during these 8 years I was even extremely close to losing my life.
I will NEVER be able to forget those 8 years and how those absolutely horrible experiences for always has been implanted in my backbone. Neither will I ever be able to forget how my body in various ways tried to tell me that something was wrong, - about how horrific pain in my chest and fainting in the street in Oslo lead to the ambulance coming for me. Only to be told after a week or so in the hospital that in fact, I was lucky to have a very good health, - but that I seriously needed to change my lifestyle and "take it easy".
Of course, it was "only" stress and the very traumatic experiences I was going through with the Norway police and tax authorities which was responsible for those health problems. But back then I had not even heard about PTSD. When a doctor first made me aware of this diagnosis I could first not believe that it was possible to experience the kind of muscle pain I have had for so many months as a result of the severe personal/business problems I had experienced in the early fall of 2012. Pain so bad that I could not even dress myself or go to the toilet without help.
Nine months in "eternal" pain!!
The muscle pain I described above first started in January/February 2013 when I experienced pain in my left upper arm. To begin with I thought that perhaps I had slept with this arm in a wrong position, but when the pain during the next few weeks spread to my shoulder, neck and also the right upper arm I started to understand that this was something entirely different.
Not counting the "start-up" period of January and February, I have with other words, (when this is
being written) lived with this pain for more than 9 months. And with nine months of experience I am not sure what is worst, - the pain itself or the fact that this so completely has robbed me of all energy and even desire for life. Of course, part of the reason for this is also the fact that I in period have problems sleeping through the night, - and often find myself sleeping a lot during the day instead. As previously mentioned, to begin with I found this so hard to believe and understand that I used Google to research the subject for myself, and the links provided above are just a couple of examples of what I was able to find in terms of factual information. In my case the situation has manifested itself as follows:
- Some days I have not been able to get out of bed in the morning.
- Almost every day it is a very painful experience getting dressed.
- Way above normal cases of having very painful muscle spasms. (Almost every day.)
- Some times having a real problem getting up from a chair in a restaurant for instance.
Again, - I am not really sure what is the worst part of this "never ending" pain experience. The "eternal" daily pain in almost every muscle in my body, - or the fact that I am so totally robbed of energy and feel so VERY tired all the time. Some days I have only been laying on the bed, trying to relax and avoid moving any of my muscles, half asleep.
What about my FUTURE in this situation?
Behind one of the links I have given you above you will be able to read the following words:
"In addition, if a person is experiencing pain as a result of some kind of traumatic event, the experience of pain may also trigger PTSD symptoms, such as memories or thoughts about the traumatic event."
With other words, anything which might contribute towards a person
being reminded of the REASON for his or her condition will easily contribute to MORE pain! This being a fact, it really does put a PTSD victim in an almost impossible situation. How can you avoid being reminded of the REASON when every time you move your body you feel pain?
Anyway, although I am still having A LOT of pain almost on a daily basis, I am really TRYING to look towards a more positive and better future. And when starting to write this post almost FOUR weeks ago now, I had a few days where the situation had been much, much bette
r. With that I also had a more positive outlook for the future and thought that the first thing I needed to do was to give you all an explanation of what has been going on in my life. This is also for the reason that I have failed some of you in being able to follow up in a few things
. As an example this is in particular true in relation to some of the business and income opportunities I have tried to get us involved with during the last 10 - 11 months.
This was however more than 3 weeks ago now, but since that time
my pain and health situation has again become much worse. I have just recently returned back from Moscow where I spent a couple of days with some specialists there who are working on a very special form of treatment with equipment developed in Russia. I am now hopeful that I will be able to follow up with this treatment in the future and will return here with more information as it becomes available in regard to possible good results from this treatment.
PS: As I am ready to publish this post on my blog, my condition
has again become very bad. For the past 5 - 6 days I have been forced to stay mostly in bed due to pain and most of all the TOTAL loss of energy caused by this condition for more than 9 months now. It feels like I have a more or less constant and very
painful tooth ache in most of my muscles. I hope and pray to God that this condition will soon come to an and, and that a normal way of life will return to me soon. Please come back to my blog for more updates later.